So, a week ago, i set off to Heathrow airport to fly back to the U.S. for the last 3 months of the Burning Ones Internship. After about 5 weeks in England, I couldn't wait to be back in Oklahoma with my internship family, and of course my beautiful fiancee.
So, after my 6/7 hour flight from London to Chicago, I headed to border control. I was going back on the visa waiver programme, for 3 months, which is the longest it can last for. The intial border control guy took me to the secondary check room. This was a bit worrying, but having spent 5 hours in Israeli airport security, I wasn't freaking out. I spent quite a bit of time praying and reading my Bible. After 3 hours there and lots of questions from one of the border security police, I was told they were sending me back to England on the next flight, mainly because i had been denied a visa before (in december). Border police escorted me onto the airfield, and drove me to the plane. I then had another 7 hour flight back to England.
It was probably the hardest experience of my life. To get that close and then be sent back, it was pretty tough, and quite surreal at first. I'd been waiting 5 weeks to get back to the internship, and to see Rachel, so to not get there was pretty disappointing.
Loads of questions have been going around in my head, some not very helpful - like what i could have said or done differently.
All i know to do is to wait on God. I've been asking what He wants me to do next, and i know He'll tell me at some point. But i'm doing my best to yield to what God wants to do in me. I want to know Him in this situation. I want Him to deal with my self, to change me and mould me through this.
